In the End

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My first Amplify post was “In the Beginning”, and my next few posts for Amplify will be about two fabulous initiatives, and other fabulous people, so this is probably one of the last (if not the last) Amplify posts that is directly about me or my fiction, and so I thought it would be proper to title it “In the End”. The six months of the  Amplify Fellowship are almost over (but I’ll still be hovering all over aKoma), and law school will be over in a week. Here’s to all my endings: a celebration.

At the end of pride,

You wear yourself.

At the end of guilt,

You find humility.

At the end of the day,

My mum comes home.

At the end of the lies, 

I learned that there are some people who will always be with you. 

At his end,

I learned that you’ve got to go see that friend you’ve been saying that you will go see. 

At the end of school,

I understood that some things are neither here nor there.

Towards the end of a Friday, at something like 9:58,

I met someone.

At the end of her laugh,

I realised that Imani is magic.

At the end of the glass of wine,

I smiled.

At the end of the road,

You find the chapel.

At the end of the drive,

I got the call.

At the end of the battle,

I saw my father’s splendour. 

At the end of the stubbornness,

You see people.

At the end of the story,

I met purpose.

At the end of the article,

I realised that red meat is not so good.

At the end of the song,

I heard my heart. 

At the end of the noise,

I learned that friends are quiet. 

At the end of a gathering of creatives,

You must ask yourself questions.

At the end of the email,

I knew that a girl like Waihuini is not ordinary. 

At the end of the journey, 

You get to Busia. 

At the end of the day,

When you see how we rush to speak of the greatness of those who are gone, we must speak about how we love those like Yvonne Adhiambo Owuor, who are with us here and now. 

At the end of this year,

Ask me what has changed. 

In this ending, I am calm, at peace, quiet. I am me in a way I have not been before. I’m preparing myself for the things that might or might not come in the next few weeks, and I am excited. I know something about where I want to go, the people I want to be there with, and the things I will always say thanks for. In this ending, I am happy. :)

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